I’m toxic ! Save me ( drowning in toxicology)

                                                                                    

 Pretty much after a decade , I am writing today because I have never felt anxious confused and lazy like this a day before my exam. What did I do today ? Simply exist. My relationship with VVP’s textbook is quite interesting on every alternate exam I somehow appear to get disgusted by it. And sadly this is that episode. His book is nice , for causal reading and during class hours. But for exam oriented stuff it’s quite difficult because everything is in paragraphs. The forensic medicine part is nice but then his immense love for toxicology and the way how he cannot stop gushing over it is very evident and very in exam oriented. 

Or maybe I’m just super anxious about the exam I don’t know. My ind has been in this state where is everywhere and nowhere all at the same time. I did try taking a break , ended up being a really long break and then even called up Amrita for a vent session, I was all pumped up with rigour that oh yeah I’m definitely getting this exam all until the family group call and I got distracted. But yeah I understood that the core problem with the whole anxiousness is probably because I haven’t written out my thoughts in a while, you need someone amount of verbal diarrhoea to work your way through. A place to organise all that thoughts so that it doesn’t coming. Dashing into you like an airplane. 

Also all this time I didn’t wrote wa sbecause bohai is in quite a critical condition now that his keyboards don’t work. And it took me a while to figure out fast typing in tab, mostly to the the writ inclination angle. Honestly it’s not so bad fatter all I could get used to this. But IOS needs to make the blogger app. Typing in web rn. 

On how life has been , 3rd was wonderful in the sense that I have never been so free and jobless but we all know that it is a tiny bait for us to go into the frightening final year. But then my worries right now are constrained into me FMT exam popping up day after. I checked my weight today and we have achieved a new milestones , yes , we are stepping into our 70s , the most dreaded moment since. 8th grade. Gotta do something about it and I’m nearing obesity and being someone whip learnt all about preventing health this year it’d time I pulled out the diet calculations skills into the picture I believe ! 

What else ? Nothing too spicy to spill about no new drama around in town it’s just me and my exam. 

My snacking schedule has also gone wasayyy to crazzzy with me munching in everything and anything post 10:30, hopefully I’ll find a way to wean myself off of all that. 

I hope I finally getting dime sense into my mind and start getting the rhythm for the exam ready instead of sitting like a person who failed their job interview and is out drinking except my form if addiction is sugar and lies in the local wavy packets they sell in Amma store. 

It I’ll pull in with an update once I finish the exam. 

Oh yeah on candida , well I did have an appointment with the statistician but then I didn’t go cuz I haven’t dine data cleaning yet. Gotta get my shit together soon if I don’t wanna drag candidate with me to 2026. It’s about time I changed Jo the research projects anyway. 

Well toodles to the readers until I decide to pop in to update again. 

I would’ve written a poem about my helpless state but then that’s a bit too much for during exam time so hence this authors retires her words for today.