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I was feeling very tensed today and hence i have decided to write it out here .
maybe joining for a repeat was a bad idea...the more i get into this the more i feel like pretty much the same thing is gonna happen again.
i mean..until how long should i keep studying this class 11 and 12...
and that too..i cant keep up with the classes , nor am i doing the workbook properly
now am i even studying for the exams
with meghs chechis wedding coming up..ill probbaly end up missing even more classes which is actually a very dreaded thing ...
ini enthraya ingane skip cheyyua
everyone else is gonna join a college finally and i have to go two steps back and begin from zero again.
from the way things r going , house people r just thinking im on some holiday since they all have classes offline and mine are online...
ini last exam few months aaya maathram they will come and start meddling with daily affairs..
im just frustrated with life in total
i mean how do expect me to be happy when im back doing the same entrance thing
this whole drama is making me so terrified
i can assure you the word entrance sounds something like gas chambers now
the one hitler used to use ... ughhh..that is the amount of terror
seems like this times class teacher also calls on the basis of ranks only
i feel throwing away the thought of medicine and just joining a random course and doing something else
like i just dont want this whole tension and the health effects which come with it like buy one get one free
im also equally tired with people asking , commennting , advising and yada yada yada
im just so done with everything that it feels dead inside
like a deep hollowness where even if u smile outside it feels empty
with the amount of recorded classes piling up even complaining like this has turned into a luxury i should go and finish my 2.5 hr units and measurements class
i wish i could just get an admsiion where the fees are payable
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i feel like im going downhill and porbbaly even this also like the other ones is gonna be a bad decision
should i go to the hostel...but hostel is a whole di trauma itself
hiiii! I can't imagine how hard it must be for you. I hope and pray that this phase ends soon. Stay strong. You are an inspiration to many. Sending lots of love and tight hugs
ReplyDeleteYeah...thanks For your kind words
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