dont even bother to read it ( rant )

                                                                                         

ok..so im like really angry and sad right now. 

i had an exam today but i couldnt go for it because i got late. 

i wasnt even late becuase of myself.. 

my mom and sister kept asking me to iron their clothes , pack their stuff and i was supposed to be carpooling with them , but they left once they got ready and i was stuck at home. 

after which i had a breakdown session and now theres 6 mins to the exam and im typing it all here so i can stop feeling frustrated about all this. 

im getting really anxious now that exams are nearing that even the smallest bit of issue makes me very very very irritated. 

its just everyone else is over there and i couldve been too..but i always get stuck in such situations.. 

its about time i start to say no or else ill be stuck like this for the rest of my life. 

even if i scream at them for making me late theyd only say  " whats the use of going when u dont even get good marks " and ill have to sit there and listen to all of that 

ive been running arounf nonstop for the past few weeks 

i have classes every afternoon or morning and then abiut 2 exams to finish to the point where its really hard to even breathe. when i sit down for a minute im getting judged for taking brreaks. 

its just 

ughhhhhhhhhhh 

today i really feel the need for a luckycharm 

which just makes me even more frustrated. 

its 9 o clock , i should porbably go and write that exam and be done with it 

why does every step feel so hard for me ? .. its like i shouldnt even go up 

im tired of trying too much , sometimes i ust feel like leaving all if this and ust running off to somewhre.. 

im so so so tired of all of this , today is one of those bad days 

and hopefully it will pass 

for now my exam timing is passing , so ill stop the rant here