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focusing has been as hard as finding the mouse on your screen in a camouflaged background. 

sessionals week just got over , technically theres still commed left , but then its commed. 

this week i got to realise the importance of keeping tabs on your studies and how it is def not possible to mug stuff up the day before the exam. i saw a lot past behaviours approaching this week , the same feeling of leave it , im doomed anyways why bother to study anymore . all the same stuff that was there back during the slup which is concerning. I think like that once or twice and then im convinced thats the way to life. so im kinda happy i did not give in to the thoughts nd atleast read something off even though i knew that it wasnt gonna boost the prep. 

17/05/2024 

ok i forgot why i stopped writing the other day but yeah , sessionals r actually over now. i ended up watching a movie to celebrate the occasion. ive never watched ok jaanu so thought ill watch that. i just realised that i havent really watched a lot of movies because i wasnt the movie watching type also because my parents werent much fond of us watching movies as kids. but yeah the movie was nice. 

but in that there was a scene where the leads r sad that they only have 10 more days to spend together. and then bam - they leave. 

im not usually the meotional type but i did kinda tar up on that part because i realised that at some point forward there will come a day when there would only be 10 days left for us too. now yeah theres a solid 2 years ahead or atleast 1.5 , im bad at calculating. but then there will come a time when we do end up going different ways. our career plans too seem very different to me. so im sorta sad today when i think about the fact that there comes a point in life with only 10 more days to live the most beautiful part of life right now. id be lying if i said that im not scared if id be scarred. tbh i know that its gonna hit me really bad. 

but then limiting ourselves thinking of a future that hasnt happened yet doesnt seem fair to our current selves in the present either.